Monday

What weight do I want to be anyways.
I'm trying to decide were I want to be... I want to see what my body looks like at 129ish, but I kind of feel like this is more of an experiment and once I get there I don't know if I want to stay there. It's great being lean but I don't want to lose my shape too much, I don't want to look like Misha Barton who has no fat on her collar bone. I think that's the test, if my collar bones start to stick out and it looks like you could push me like a cart by sticking your hands in the holes it's game over.
Anyways today I was semi good.
Toast 1
Cheese 1
Ham 1
Non-fat milk in coffee .5 (not fat ruins coffee, yuck)

Lunch
Java Hut, this is bad
.5 Caesar Panini 7
8oz cup of tomato bisque soup, 4 (so much fat in that)
and then I had to eat the cheese bread, 3

Dinner
Chicken Veggie Soup 2
Cottage Cheese 1/2 cup .5
Crackers 3 (five crackers)
Anitpasta 0
Glass of kissing bridge merlot red wine. 1
I used to love shiraz but I'm sick of it so it's on to something new for awhile.

23.5 (If I eat nothing else today I'm good, if I have a sugar craving I'm going to drive to get an
Decafe Tall Sugar Free Hazelnut Americano Misto.
(I just have to remember that nothing tastes as good as thin feels)

UH OOH I went and had a really hot bath and drank some more wine and now I feel a bit dizzy. I think I had a glass and a half, it should wear off soon. Ballet is soon I think I'll stop by Starbucks for that Americano.

Quentin phoned and said he got really sick at the island and was throwing up, food poisioning. I feel bad for him, being at the island what a horrible place to get sick.

Oh I delivered Calendars today so I guess that contributes to that "Active Lifestyle" Kim that your talking about. So 1 point for that.

1 Point for ballet.

Kate in regards to that comment, that I'm closed minded, I just lke to say I'm not. I just like to argue because it give me time to consider what your saying. I can't just accept it straight up, I need to go throw the pros and cons of it. Think of how boring our friendship would be if we just agreed with each other all the time. :)

p.s. another note. I feel like whatever I write I'm submitting for a grade. When I press the publish post I get that oh no is it going to come back with a A, B, C, crap even a D. I think after having some TA editing what you say for so long you'll always feel a sense of apprehension hitting send. But that makes it more fun, too.
Hmm I think I think I miss school and writing essays. :(